I really miss my old life.

 

The one that involves lying around at home reading all I want and occasionally getting sucked into some self induced obsession over something or another and not having a care in the world.

 

Ok. Maybe the studying was not that bad.

 

I think the problem here is that I don't really have a goal to work towards.

 

In primary school, I didnt think much.

 

In secondary school, I wanted As.

 

In JC I wanted to prove that I'm better than everyone else (not that it's true or whatever... Just some perverse way of making sure I don't drop out of school or sink too deeply into depression.)

 

Right now, I don't really know what I'm working towards. That's the worst thing that can happen to a person. Not having a goal in life.

 

Makes doing everything doubly hard.

 

I think I may have found the root to my problems.

 

I am afraid of making mistakes and failing. To the point of not even trying to do the thing right.

 

But I just can't bring myself to do anything about this.

 

Have to admit that I am really weak in character.

 

Came to this conclusion while burning incense paper for my god-grandmother at 3am tuesday morning.

 

~*YN*~

Ok.

 

HouYing dropped by ntu.

 

I did programming assignment all by myself.

 

Twisted my left ankle again.

 

~*YN*~ 

 OK... So I screwed up my first quizes and tons of other stuff...

 

Designed flyers and banners for JAC and Cindy (congrats for making it as cultural sec!)

 

Had (and still having) serious doubts abt the course I'm taking

 

played with candles, got high on ribena, celebrated birthdays, bitched at and to hall mates.

 

For now Uni life is still not tt impressive.

 

Esp the hall part. Made some nice frens but the seniors here are like.... erm... what's the politically correct word?

 

ALOOF.

 

Knocked on their door, they said they were coming, waited outside for like 2 mins while they chatted loudly inside (its obvious that they wanna make us go away, being block rep sucks.no. being block rep's irritable roommate sucks.)

 

Have a nice life. A&E.

 

~*YN*~

Bleh right now a bit stuck on this...

 

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so sian. the allure of nice sparkly clothes and acessories is like infinitely better than a 32 lined truth table...

 

the binary looking thing is driving me nuts.

 

~*YN*~